Friday, November 20, 2009

What I Need Right Now Is…a Star

Every wish that I’ve ever made has lead me to you and I thank God for the broken road that I travelled to lead me to you
I’m not even about to hit y’all with an introduction this time around. I can honestly say that I’m not in the mood to make my particular brand of lighthearted if one sided banter. So…let’s get it.

I make the wishes that I make in memory of Jay.
When we were younger, An American Tail was one of our favorite movies and we used to drive his family crazy whenever we watched it because we had to recite every line and sing every song.
About a year or so before he passed away, we were watching the movie and trying to act as though he had all the time in the world left to live. When the movie got to my favorite song Somewhere Out There” he let the scene play then paused the movie. Turning to me, Jay asked me if I knew what the song was saying. Smart ass that I am, I gave him my signature “why don’t you break it down for me since I’m so slow” look and told him that I had no clue what it meant.
Giving me his “why you gotta be so damn difficult” look, he told me:
No matter what happens, no matter where you go or what you do in life, there’s gonna be someone out there that loves you no matter what. Someone who may have never met you is saying a prayer for you right now in hopes that they will meet you one day. They’re saying a prayer because they know that you’re out there waiting for them. They may not know who or where you are, but they know that somewhere, maybe near and maybe far, you’re out there and they’re waiting to meet you. The very thought of you could be the only thing that’s helping this person get by
At this point, he stood, grabbed me by the hand and dragged me out to the backyard.
[which I was not happy about, it was cold as shxt that night]
Once we were in the yard, he told me to look up. Doing so, he told me to make a wish for that as yet, unknown person. Without turning around to look at him, I told him that if any wishing was going to be done that night, it would be a wish for him.
“You gotta get used to the fact that I’m not gonna be here forever Ren, I have. It’s not all about me and it’s not even all about you. It’s about the other person too.”
“Why should I care about someone I don’t even know?”
“Because they care enough to do the same for you.”
Knowing that I’d never be able to win with him, I found my star and I said my wish…

Three and a half years later, it came true.

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