I laugh and joke all the time but don’t you think for a second that I don’t have issues that I’m working through because I do. I’m in the fight of my life and I honestly don’t know if I’m going to win or lose. Winning is everything and it feels like I’m consistently losing and if I lose…I lose myself. Don’t get it twisted, I’m not nor have I ever been suicidal, but If I lose I’ll die in a completely different way.
I don’t want people to worry about me and I don’t like people all in my business so, I laugh and often at that. I crack jokes, I make fun and I live this fucked up life of mine to the best of my abilities.
Why I felt the need to write this…I don’t know but there you have it.